January 13, 2005

it’z been almOst 6 yearz we being tOgather… bud nOw lOOk at uz

pain iz alwayz being ma best frenz… ma Only frenz…

bud nOw it’z ma wOrse enemy…

diz pain hurtz... sO… hurtz…

every time m arOund wif ma frenz i feel really happy bud when m alOne i alwayz wOnder n think abOut ma sad past! diz iz One side Of me nOne Of ma frenz knOw. nO bOdy knOwz abOut ma backgrOund n ma darkest n saddest secret. until tOday da wOund in ma brOken heart iz still fresh n hurtz me sO much. da pain iz undiscrible! i guest there iz nOthing in diz wOrld tO cure it until i leave diz flesh n blOOd behind n flOw wif da wind intO gOd armz. when i recall back Or talk abOut dOze sad memOriez, tearz still trickle dOwn ma chickz n i wOuld tell ma self dat i wOuld nOt dO da same miztake again 2 ma luv. i prOmize tO gOd! if i dO make da same miztake i will never fOrgive ma self even until da last breath i take On diz earth. even tearz cannOt bring ma luv back bud i still hOpe One day gOd will bring ma luv back clOze tO me befOre i die. dat One lessOn i learned in my life! i think i better stOp here bcOz itz really getting hard tO me tO cOntinue…

arinTaker
13 Januari 2005